Okay, been a while since I posted, but that's only because I've moved and it took me a month before I was able to get my internet set up. And a fair bit more has happened, a hell of a lot more good than bad. And it's going to be wonderful getting back to writing and reading Blogger again! I've missed it severely!
First things first, I'm finally moved out completely on my own! No roommate, no support, just myself and my thoughts! It's both wonderful and a shame. I don't have somebody to share with all the time, there's no feeling of other people living here, which at some points makes me feel slightly lonely. For the most part, though, I'm enjoying the silence and calm that comes with being on your own. And (look away kids, not pg!) the joy of walking around nekkid without worrying a roommate will come home soon! My place is nearly as large as my last one, so I've had plenty of room to have people over and enjoy their company, plus a few friends that live just a short walk away that I've gone and seen.
Things in the place fit very well, almost everything is unpacked. I'm only missing a few things to make it feel like a home, and that's just some dishes, a table and chairs, and a television! Over the next few months I'll be upgrading most of what I own, firstly getting a king sized bed. Thanks to some wonderful friends I've managed to get ahold of a really large couch and some other basics for my place!
As for the rest of the time I've been gone, getting some things resolved at my work place that were health related, and hoping that things went well for me (they did, with some mixed results) in the rest of my life. This involved getting my social life back on track, doing more than just working and being home. It also involved getting back into the hobbies I had before, and expanding to new ones for the time being.
The title is more based on a big part of my life that just happened. One of the most important friendships to me just ended. It'd been ending for a while now because of a few different circumstances. I'm sure there's ones that I don't know, but the biggest ones were myself being drunk around a friend and her boyfriend disliking that I was there. Mistakes happen, and I'm not going to go into it very much. All that needs be said is that I've apologized, and things ended. Maybe forever, maybe not. But to all you out there looking for lessons from this blog, own up to your mistakes. Shit may be bad for a little bit afterwards, but you'll have done the best you can do and it really changes how things turn out for you. The most amazing thing about this situation is finding out how much support I have from people I never expected it from! It's meant the world to me and been very touching.
Stress is a funny thing. You always think it's a bad thing, but with the amount that I've been through in the last few months it's changed my opinion of it. Stress is good. It makes us appreciate the little things that don't stress us out, and realise we really like people that just...talk. Not about important stuff, but you enjoy your time around them because it's good conversation and nothing more. And the other thing we imagine when we're under stress and then it becomes too much and we just snap and either break down with depression or crying, or we just go postal (which will be the topic of another one of these lovely posts soon) and get angry/violent at almost everything. But what happened with me is just....everything became so funny! The things that happen are just...amusing. You contemplate doing things you would have been worried about other people thinking badly of, just because it would make things even funnier. Sure, the fact that you're now taking risks you never would have before can be bad, but it's not that you're being reckless. Just....less inhibited. The best analogy I can think of is when you've had just enough liquor to get past being tipsy, but not so much that doing things is going to be a danger to you. Just an observation.
Lastly, I've been expanding my music tastes a lot lately. Went from somebody that listens to almost exclusively rock music, I've branched out to more rap, country, pop, and metal music. It's been interesting, especially when it's a lot of relatively local artists (I live on Vancouver Island, British Columbia, Canada). I'm hoping to master my chosen instruments soon to see if I can start making some music. Right now it's still the guitar, next either the piano or drums, and once I've got those three mastered I'll go and start trying to compose with those. ANd probably learn another instrument or two, just to keep it always changing! Can you imagine rap with a freaking sax keeping the beat?? That's the stuff I want to try, see how it sounds, and start a new genre!
Been fun talking to you, and I'm sure I've covered some of the same stuff as my last post, but that's what happens when it lasts longer than your lack of internet, haha.
Never place blame on others unless you're willing to accept it as half your fault.
